Mother's Day

I have a really hard time articulating my thoughts and feelings when it comes to Motherhood. There is just so much…
As usual I find that Elder Holland says it best.

I love and am so thankful for all of the Mothers in my life. And I love love love love the kiddos who made me a mama and my best friend who supports me in chasing after my dreams. They both move pretty quick these days.

Parker helped the kids and Dax make me a card. It said, "We tried to count how much we love you but, we ran out of fingers toes and paws" 

When I neared the end of my pregnancy with Jack I remember thinking, "I'm excited to have my body be my own again" Then of course came breastfeeding and I thought surely when we wrapped that up, my body would be my own again. Ha. I'm a mom.
My arms are a cradle, the safe place after a bad dream. My hands are their lego builders, spoon feeders, bike steadiers and bandaid appliers. My eyes are constantly focused on them. My feet know the way to the crib in the dark, they pace back and forth in the night and chase up and down in the day. Even in my sleep my ears are trained to hear the smallest cry. My shoulder is the place for them to rest their heads. My mind is full of thoughts of them. Worries. Hopes. I need to wash his favorite blanket, she needs longer pajamas.
Maybe some day I'll get those parts of me back. Maybe some day I won't give all of myself all of the time…
But they will always have my heart. My heart swells with joy when they are happy, floods with sorrow when they are in pain and holds a continual prayer day in and day out, "Thank you for sending them to us, please keep them safe, please help me to be a good mother." I know that will never change.

May the Fourth be with You!

We had a really great Star Wars day over here. We played with lightsabers and Jack learned the theme song. I let Jack watch The Force Awakens. He was glued to it from beginning to end. He is turning into quite the Star Wars fan and it makes me all kinds of happy.

Cowa Slide

Jack really loves playing with Cora right now. Especially helping her go down the slide. His world is going to be shattered when she gets old enough to want a say in what they do!  

Everyday Awesome

Right Now

Right now:
Jack Vincent, you are 2 years and 7 months old. Your eyes have gone so light blue sometimes they look gray.  You wear your Mike Trout hat every single day and some nights you even sleep in it. You love Cars. You sleep with the entire cast of Toy Story in your bed plus Leroy. You insist I give each one a goodnight kiss before I give you yours. You take things very seriously. Your favorite phrase is "Oh no! What do?" (Oh no, what can we do?) You are so much fun and absolutely hilarious. You are not afraid to try new things and after you do anything from putting your shoes on, to going down a big slide you say "Wahoo!" and fist pump.





Cora June, you are seven months old. You are inch worming all over the place and are so close to crawling I am scared if I take my eyes off of you I'll miss it! You love to stand. You lock you knees whenever we try to set you down to sit. You have mastered the drawn out lip quiver and frown before the loud scream. Its heartbreaking and gets you whatever you want. You are my social butterfly. Smiles and coos for everyone you see. You suck your thumb whenever you are upset or sleepy. You give us new reasons to love you every single day and have the three of us wrapped around your chubby little finger.





Together, you two are currently best of friends. Cora, you want to have eyes on your brother at all times. Jack, you love to make Cora laugh and you want her included in your play. "Cowa slide" "Cowa jump" "Cowa halp" You two will burst out laughing together and I won't know why. Already sharing little secrets.